You ever get to the point where you are so stressed and overwhelmed you just snap. Tears flow down your face and you just want to face plant on your bed and cry it out. Well, that was me last week.
My financial circumstances have grown very stressful, and with no income at the moment I was trying to keep myself in a positive mindset, that I would be making money soon. But, that wasn’t the only thing making me feel down. With all this extra time, I was pouring it all into my blog, trying to engage with my audience. Only to see my stats get worse and worse. It was defeating.
So, last week, when I put the last of my money into getting a very expensive tutor for a licensing exam I need to pass, for my law license in the state of NY, I lost it. Tears. More tears and me face planting it into my bed.
I let myself cry for maybe 30 seconds before I thought to myself, what are you doing. My inner dialogue and self reflection decided to have a conversation. It went something like this.
“Life is so hard right now. I am so defeated and its not getting better.”
“Yes, but you are also making it harder than it needs to be.”
“But I am using the last of all my money on this tutor. I need money for other big purchases soon. I am feeling like my bank account, empty. I’m so frustrated and tired.”
“Yes, that is okay. But, you have made a lot of progress and have job prospects. You have all your bills paid for this month. No more negative. The world can work for you, you just have to pu the good vibes out there.”
“You are right.”
I proceeded to get up. Sniffle a bit more and walk back to my laptop to keep job hunting and working on my blog.
Now, when you are going through it, self-regulation and reflection can be one of the hardest things to do. To stop yourself from further rolling down the negativity slope is challenging. It requires a whole lot strength.
It is easy to get all caught up in your complaining, tears, and look how much is on your plate. It is easy to berate yourself for your choices that led you here. But, it really doesn’t matter.
I get it, I really do. But, at the end of the day, you have to change what is going on in your head. No one else can do that. It is all on you to be positive, to take action, to trust and belief in yourself.
Once, I got up from my small cry. I started to tell myself my accomplishments just in the past couple of days. The consistency I was showing in networking, job application, and toward my blog. I was showing myself that I am doing something about my circumstances, I am not laying down on the job.
If you haven’t been doing what you need to do, now is not the time to lay down and cry about it. Now is a great time to say, no enough is enough. Time to get serious and start making shit happen. Seriously, right now.
The hardest part is to keep going, when you are not getting the immediate results you are looking for, keep going. It is hard. Super hard. You will still feel stuck in the middle of everything, but there will be a give and change will start to happen.
It is not immediate. To be able to see it you will have to keep a positive mindset. You will be in charge of your thinking and your doing.
Now, I had been working hard on finding my normal temp job for over 2.5 weeks. Something that normally takes about a day and max 3 days to find. But, later that evening after having my small cry, I got a temp job. My consistent efforts over the past couple weeks were paying off.
Now, I don’t know what is going on in your life. I don’t know what is overwhelming you or got you feeling at your wits end. But, I do know you are not alone. I know that you will get through this. It is a challenge, but you are capable of overcoming it.
If you want help in your journey, reach out to me. I provide free coaching calls that you can sign up for here. Get some help, while walking through a stressful time in your life.